Hey, this will be my fourth and final attempt at saving the universe. If I fail tell my family I love the and I will home to make dinner soon….As always I have not attempted to program anything since last semester. I even forgot how to use VI. Oh well enough dwelling on the past it is now time to man-up or cry like a baby. Okay, maybe I'll cry a little before this all starts. I am sure I get back into this once I start and he ideas begin to flow.

After careful procrastination, I have finished the project. I think I understand the assignment. I hopefully fulfilled its requirements. I found it easier to write code now that I have a reasonable comprehension of c language. I am still hesitant when it come to applying it to data structures though. I sort of understand the materials in class and am trying to bridge the gap of drawing the structure and writing code for it. I know at this point it is useless to ponder on it since we really have not yet touch bases on how to program to pointers to do what we need.

Wow its already been a week since I last wrote in here? Ok here goes everything. I am currently trying to finish the next installment of the second best class I have ever taken. I can not seem to get the concept down of drawing out the code first. Wish me luck. Its is already due and I have not yet started.

Again another week has past and I have yet to enter another opus entry. Again I knew this was going to be my down fall. I just have so much trouble keeping up with this entry. I believe I have the grasp of the concept of singly linked nodes. I can not believe that this was possible considering this last semester was next to nil. I am keeping up with assignments and this shocks no one more then myself!

The concept of singly linked list seem to elude me. Thanks to the help of my classmates, I am able to complete the assignment for this week. I do however get to concept of it and can explain it to my pet labs who do not seem to mind listening to a bunch of gibberish.

I am so distressed. I keep forgetting to update my opus. So here goes, I have been working on SLL1 everyday so far and have been banging it head against the wall repeatedly. I just cannot seem to get the concept as well as I need to. I get it using the drawings but I have trouble translating it to working code. I am hoping to get a lot of help to understand where I am going wrong.

The project extension was a very generous offer, but futile for me as I seem to fall well behind the curve for this project. It is only thanks to the help of my study group that I am able to get close to completion. I will however turn this project in short of stellar and just barely passing. I don't get it…I can explain it to others in the group but to implement it is a whole other animal for me. I understand the concept but putting it to code is really tough.

Why is it that no matter how much time I have on certain projects it doesn't seem enough time? To be honest, I really don't have time…with my kids and family demanding my time and the time intensive projects and other classes…I'm surprise that I am able to do as well as I am doing. Sometimes I feel like just giving up, if I spent too much time on school work my family feel neglected and vise versa. I just can not come on top no matter what.

Again I almost missed the opus entry. And again if it were not for my study group I would have nothing to turn in. I get the feeling that I am in over my head in this course. I have seriously considered going to a different major. My brother says that I am way ahead of where he was when he took this course…why do not believe that? I understand that I can read code and understand the logic but why am I having so much trouble coding itself? Don't know what to do, maybe will talk to adviser in the morning.